Kind of home sick what to do?

ok so i can never stay in my hometown its a **** hole no jobs tons of drugs and nothing but baby drama everyones ******* everyone just a complete shithole last yr i packed a bag and went to the city got a job and was there for about 4 months got fired and went home but now about four months ago i did it again i packed one bag of things and left oneday got a job and now i have an apt and doing good just got my licence back and am working on getting a car again but the prob is as much as i hate that shithole i call home i miss it equally i miss my friends and just being there i dont have any family really been that way since i was 16 so my friends are the closest thing to a family i have and i miss the **** out of em but i had to leave because back home you either work in a resturaunt your entire life sell drugs or if your a girl you strip and i want more btw im starting college in aug down here like i said im working i about to have a car again i basiclly have everything but why am i not as happy as i fell i should be?